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Name: Holly
Gender: Female
Interests: I'm interested in lots of things. Religion is interesting. Literature, history, photography, film, music, art, philosophy, nature, good conversation, the outdoors. All sorts of things.
Occupation: Actress, writer, student, etc.
Message: message meEmail: email me
AIM:  TearsKeepAFallin
Yahoo:  TearsKeepAFalling
Member Since:
6/5/2005
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| the tearskeepafalling blog has finally been officially archived to my computer and i don't plan on coming back here. xanga makes it much too tricky to archive old posts (reverse chronological order AND no titles included = wtf) so i am moving to blogger. i will leave this site up for a couple months so people can read this post but i'm moving...
http://storiesdreamsandmusings.blogspot.com/
it's going to be killa. i have good stories to tell, my dreams are better than ever and my brain is working overtime these days.
CHECK IT OUT AND TELL YOUR FRIENDS AND COMMENT AND RATE AND SUBSCRIBE AND ALL THOSE INTERNETY THINGS.
or don't. whatever. i miss you guys, though.
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| hello good xanganite peoples.
have you ever wondered what i look like? what effect the timbre of my voice would have on your ears? WELL. do i ever have good news for you. i recently entered a CONTEST on YOUTUBE and had to make a VIDEO for it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vwCIq7fuTE4
please give me stars and cutesy comments. :)
i also vow that if i win the contest i will return to xanga...i will undergo a username change for life transitionalwhathaveyou purposes, but i will return. 
i love you all. frrlz.
holly
(i sent this as a message but it did not show up in my sent box so i am reposting it here...heeheehee!)
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| So many of you have been so good to me while I have been writing on this site. My entries have been half depressed or half angry, with the other half being a panicked attempt at silly airheadedness or uniqueness, sometimes even intelligence. Many of you have been here to offer me words of solace more often than I deserved and I want to thank you so sincerely for that.
While looking over some old entries that are now privatized I was struck time and time again by the way you have been willing to electronically hold my hand and hug me and offer me words of encouragement when I was hurting the worst and was least able to express myself intelligently, if at all. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
I don't think I will come back to xanga because I feel like those deep relationships have faded and have been replaced with something more superficial, something based less in what happens in our lives and in our minds and more in how many eprops, recommendations, or comments we get in each new entry. Quantity is overriding quality for most of us, or we are following that road less traveled and simply never updating. Ever. Me? I update my blog out of guilt instead of need or desire and it makes me fidgety and upset when I don't get a rousing chorus of "oh poor you Holly" every time I reiterate that my room is still not clean, I am still unhappily living with my mother and two sisters and I am still completely unsure of who and what I am or should be. The new features on xanga are great but they are making it into another instant gratification site instead of one that requires a commitment to finding and maintaining relationships. For me. Maybe for you it's still great, which is cool.
I am toying with the idea of coming back, bringing some of my old entries back into the public domain and starting again, acknowledging my past here while attempting to forge a nostalgia-ridden future, but chances are pretty good that I will try to get a digital copy of everything I've done here and then shut down Ye Olde TearsKeepAFalling (lyrics from a Buddy Holly song, thank you very much) forever and ever amen.
If that is the case...
Be well motherfuckers.
You mean more to me than you probably should.
Holly
(There are more of you that I would have like to have tagged in this entry, but for some reason your usernames were not appearing in my choice box. I think you all know who you've been though. Thank you good people of Xanga, for being there for me when people I could reach out and touch weren't cutting it.)
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